Saurabh’s Dil Dosti Etc

23Sep07

My friend Saurabh Chauhan has arrived. His first silver screen venture ‘Dil Dosti Etc’ is slated for release on the 28th September’07 I have had the privilege of sharing stage space (i wish i cud write screen space) with this hunk. If i remember correctly he last stood at 5 Feet and 10 inches, but he seems to be the tallest dude in the cast of the movie. His maternal uncle is Dinesh Thakur, a well known theatre personality; so we can say that acting is in this guy’s blood. As he has communicated to the group, its not a big role; but its a start…and starts are always special I tried but could not post Saurabh’s pic along with Shreyas so will have to do with the poster pic

Those who are curious can check out the website of the movie. In the GALLERY link, go to the STILLS Click more and look at the pic on the top left. Saurabh is the guy leaning on the tree by the side of Shreyas–who is wearing a white shirt

http://www.dildostietc.com/main.html

His initial appearance was in the Doordarshan serial ‘Jasoos Vijay’ where he essayed the role of an AIDS patient. It will be a moment of pride for all of us who have seen him strive hard for this moment. Best of luck dude, make us all proud and we are looking forward to the moments when we will bragg about how we have known you since childhood

PS:- The music of the movie is already a rage with the crowds.

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Lumbini park blasts

25Aug07

As i write this post, the death count in the Hyderabad blasts has reached 34 and rising. I am a new comer to this city, and have to confess that i have fallen in love with the all embracing culture of this city already. This is the second instance of blasts since my arrival here and one cannot help but wonder what could drive man to such madness… sometimes i feel we humans are not worthy of any sort of beauty.. we can not tolerate it. If humans can do it to a paradise like Kashmir..they can do it to any place under the sun.. and then the question arises… are these perpetrators humans at all?

Lumbini was a place where Budhdha was born, and today we see the name getting smeared with the blood of innocents…

We are developing…. but into what?… definitly not humans..

may God give peace to the departed souls… and some sense to the subhumans..

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thank you :)

11Aug07

The Happy Birthday calls have started coming in, and i cant think of a better way to thank you all for being there for me. I would like to express my feelings for all you friends with the lyrics of a song from the movie Gaban (1966). I was a 15 year old when i first heard this song, the thing which caught my attention were the simple yet heart felt lyrics. I FEEL what this song says… for all of you. I thought about putting down my feelings as a poem, but almost immediately i was reminded about this song… and i realized that even if i were to put in all my feelings into it…i would not be able to say it as beautifuly. so here goes to our friendship

the song goes like this

ehsaan mere dil pe tumhara hai doston,
yeh dil tumhare pyaar ka maara hai dston.

Banta hai mera kaam tumhaare hi kaam se,
hota hai mera naam tumhare hi naam se,
tum jaise meherbaan ka sahaara hai doston,
yeh dil tumhare pyaar ka maara hai dston

Jab aa padaa hai koi bhi mushkil ka raasta,
maine diya hai tumko muhabbat ka vaasta,
har haal me tumhi ko pukaraa hai doston,
yeh dil tumhare pyaar ka maara hai dston

yaron ne mere vaaste kya kuch nahin kiya,
sau baar shukriya are sau baar shukriya
bachpan tumhaare saath guzaaraa hai doston
yeh dil tumhare pyaar ka maara hai dston

those who want to listen to it, here is the link

Gaban Songs

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Peek A Boo :)

03Aug07

This is a pretty simple* and harmless* game friends, i guess the wannabe Casanovas would already have guessed the content of this post

Picturize this situation, you are sitting alone in a restaurant on a saturday evening, reluctantly sipping on the lemon tea you ordered; the gentle breeze is doing little to soothe your loneliness, the waiter is hovering around you to squeeze in that one extra order, the dark shades of “Monday Clouds” are beginning to appear at the horizon and allofasudden this absolutely mind blowing specimen of female anatomy (let me name her Urvashi) makes an entry into the scene….

URVASHI

Wow!!! Right????…….Naah..Wrong..see the problem with most of us frustrated nearing 30 crowd is..we get so carried away by the entry that we let it show clearly on our faces…remember “The Mask”. For those who do not remember the look.. here is a reckoner

Drooling is fun, right? yeah might be, but you know what mate? you lost it right there, the golden rule of flirting says…never let the girl know that you are interested… so the right reaction in this case would be…. a bit like this

OK now that the groundwork is done…

WHAT?? that ignoring bit was just the GROUNDWORK??? U KIDDING ME? THAT WAS TOUGH MAN……

Ok!! hold your horses Napoleans, let me make this thing very clear…i never said that this was going to be easy..i said it was a game…but then some games ARE tough.. this is one tough game.. Got it???

Ok so now that the groundwork is done, let me delve into what has happened till now. Having stated your disinterest in Urvashi very openly, by totaly ignoring her, you have given her a reason to notice you. She would be thinking “Who is that guy? how dare he not drool? what does he think of himself? just a 5 feet something and such attitude???.. etc etc..” I Know how most of you would be feeling at this moment… but the truth is guys.. thats how most of the beautiful girls tend to think about us but dont loose hope… the game is yet to start

So now that you know what she is thinking…. you make your first real move…. take a casual look at her..

1/3rd of a second is good enough…man you need to work hard on not drooling so freely… Control Make sure that she SEES that you have given her a glance..otherwise you can continue doing this exercise till kingdom come and the bhains would never dance to the been.

Lets take a close look into what just happened, from the point of no reaction at all, suddenly she sees the hope that you might not have ignored her totally. let me get one thing straight, her “hope” here has more to do with “being noticed” rather than with “being noticed by you”. So do not start jumping yet. Actually…foget jumping for the rest of the game.

You know how it feels when you are watching something and at the same time from the corner of your eye you can make out if someone is holding a gaze on you??? know that feeling?

In the pic above, the army man knows that the nurse on the extreme left is gazing at him, in spite of talking to the other nurse… So mate when you start getting this feeling about Urvashi..its time for the second glance.. i call it the “Gotcha glance”. Give her a sudden and straight look and hold the eye contact for a maximum of 3 seconds…

… Catch her looking at you…red handed… 90% chances are that she would not know what to do next.. Game\set\match goes to you if you catch THAT look… if you dont? well then its the other 10% you got stuck with..better luck next time

Having delivered the “Gotcha glance”, the mission of the game is accomplished, the ice is broken and you can move in.. the “moving in” could be in the form of an honest smile(the smile will formaly end the game) or more interestingly.. in the form of successive iterations of a Gotcha glance followed by another Gotcha glance or a casual glance…mix and match to your taste…

Some dos and donts:-

1) Ensure that there are no hunks in the vicinity, if you are doing it for the first time ( for some it could add to the challenge )
2) Do not do it on a family outing, your preoccupation would be easily noticed.
3) Always remember that you are doing it for fun… not to demean anyone… if you notice that the other person is uncomfortable..cease all eye contact immediately… let them be.
4) If you have a giant ego, better not try this at all, it requires practice and could be unsavory for you in case of failed attempts.
5) For your own sake……remember.. this game is not about “winning”..in as much as its about “winning a friend”

Lets get it started

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The Silent Crossover

29Jul07

The Silent Crossover

Silence spoke a hundred words tonight,
pain has set a hundred passions alight,
tears as pure as nectar wash my eyes,
to the heavens above I bellow…this cant be right.

The moon’s beauty and the sun’s blaze are passé now,
Many sacrifices are mere farces now,
Of a distant past, all pleasures seem to be,
Withered with denial, frustrations line my brow.

Rain drops have lost their soothing touch,
The morning breeze, does not promise much,
Of the darkness within, I paint a picture without,
I seem to have lost what I never had as such.

True to the nature of things which happen to me
I can’t see the good; my big ones claim to see,
As I sit inert, watching the darkness close in,
The darkness which my big ones say, shall set me free.

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The perfect day..

29Jun07

Given the rationed time for ourselves, unfortunately provided to us by ourselves… i was wondering as i sat alone in my room after a long day’s work– what would it be like to live a perfect day?
And the thought which followed in the same vein was— What would a perfect day be like?

and that is what let the flood gates open up, i am pretty much blurting out what my heart desires.. and so it can be taken as a close enough approximation of THE perfect day.

Here are some of the things i figured out–

1) I should wake up at 10:30 am precisely. U must be wondering why it has to be 10:30 am? well the simple reason being that everyday.. this is the time when i start my preperations for office, and opening my eyes at 10:30 am would give me the chance of savoring the fact that though its time to wake up and start getting ready.. i need not get up

2) The sun should not be out when i wake up, it should be like one of those days when you look up to the skies and say “its gonna rain”.. and it does not rain… a cool breeze keeps you entertained and hearty. It should be as if the gods want you to venture out and have a good day.

3) I should not get calls of people whom i dont want to talk with… for that matter, i should not get any calls at all… not even SMSes.. as it is, i keep my mobile in the silent mode.. yet i dont want any vibrations on this day… at least not from my moblie

4) I would like to have a squirrel sitting at my bedside window, eating a nut. Somehow the sight of a squirrel eating something has the potential of keeping me engaged for a good half an hour. The way it moves its tail along with every head movement, its as if the tail is responding to its heart beats.

5) I would like to see mountains, with clouds hovering over them from my window. did i mention green mountains? i dont like rocky mountains…

6) I would like to have my breakfast not on the dining table but on my bed. Yes, normally i stop myself from eating on my bed, because then it might get dirty, but since it is the perfect day.. i would like to mess it up a bit.

7) I would like to be able to listen to all the songs which i have been wanting to listen but have been unable to because i dont find them on the internet.. i dont wan to got to a site for this… the music should start playing on its own.. and continue.. not too loud… but audible enough to appreciate the words. “Sham-e-gahm ki kasam” type songs.

The sun should be up till 8:30 pm at least. Just like that.. in fact i would like the sunset to get as delayed as possible.. it marks the end of the day.. i dont want the perfect day to end anytime soon.

9)I would love to watch a movie which makes me laugh like a kid, not like a mature ass as i end up being invariably… when was the last time this happened? i dont remember clearly… i want to live those laughs again. I would like to see many movies for the first time again ( Chupke chupke, padosan, half ticket, chalti ka naam gadi, chashme baddur, golmaal, pyar ke who saat din, chameli ki shadi, etc etc)

10) I would like to go back to my school, would like to just sit in those classrooms and if possible, have a talk with my kindergarten teachers. It would be lovely to listen to what they have to say about how I was as a kid. The ideal time window for this encounter would be 4-6:30 PM in the evening, just after I have had my siesta.

11) Just after this encounter I would like to land up at a party. A party where only those people are invited whom I have not met or communicated with for more than 10 years. Why 10 years and not 6 or 11? Well….its my personal observation that I remember people and miss people at a time period of 10 non-communicative years. I would be reminded of them out of the blue and would start feeling guilty about not being able to do anything about the lack of communication with these folks. On the perfect day, I would like to have a rollicking time with them.

12) I would like the party to go on till 11:00pm. It would be the right time to call the end of day with some friends… and simultaneously call it the starting of a wonderful evening under the star filled and moonlit sky….with someone to whom I could not say.. how much I would have appreciated their presence in my life….

13) The perfect day shall end with me going to sleep on my 6 feet by 4 feet king sized bed at my maternal grandparent’s house at Ajmer, propped up with cylindrical pillows, gazing at the moon from the bedside window… the last wish in my mind before dozing off being… tomorrow should be another of these perfect days.

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The things which pass us by…

24Jun07

Back in class tenth, my parents had promised to buy me a Hi-Fi powerhouse if i crossed a certain percentage in the board exams. I crossed the percentage, but for some twist of fate, i could not land the 280 Watts PMPO Philips AW558 powerhouse. I had to be content with the 200 Watts PMPO Philips AW557. I enjoyed the powerhouse for all it was worth and more. Today 11 years later, that powerhouse is connected to my PC and delivers satsfying quality of music. But to tell you the truth…. every time i try to adore that powerhouse… Philips AW558 comes to my mind. And the taste that remains in my mouth is not that of victory..its that of having seen something pass me by…

There are moments in our life which we just have to live with… moments which remind us of the fact that something or someone passed us by… and for some reason or the other.. all we could do was to watch it/them bid that final goodbye to us. these moments haunt us, they carry with them the power of ruining the most joyous of occasions….. and seemingly there is nothing much we can do about it.

The one special moment when you should have decided to buy something, the one special moment when you think you should have said what you felt deep down in your heart, the one special moment when you should have thanked someone, or the one special moment when you should have helped someone…… there are many such occasions… and they leave you gasping as if you have been punched in the stomach…

What do i do with these moments? well.. since there is nothing much i can do about it… i let them wreck my balance and then when the storm clouds have cleared.. i go about my life as if nothing ever happened…. Did Some Smartass say DENIAL???… yeah so be it… in the end what matters is… whether i am still standing after that punch has been delivered….. I know i am standing…. i know i can take some more punches before i go down…

the wind still carries the scent,
the soil still bears the footprints,
the ears still hear the laughter,
the mind still sees all hints,

they tell me… someone has passed me by,
pretending as if i did not exist,
They scream… someone has bid goodbye..
of whom they knew…. and i did’nt

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The eternal itch….

09Jun07

Most of the love stories end with a “and they lived happily ever after” tagline. Some dont.. i agree… but most do…. kindly agree

What happens to people who have had the luxury of living a

free

life before falling in love and getting married? do they play along with the script of the “happily married” fairy tale? Do they not feel claustrophobic at some point in the relationship and start looking for someone with whom they have not already shared everything?

I feel that the above mentioned concerns are based upon a very narrow definition of love…. Most of us have been brought up with the understanding that we need to have a one mate per lifetime policy… some of us (yours truly included) wonder how that is possible… some others dont think too much about it and get busy with other things in life…like making money and yet some others gain control (???) over this desire and take pride in having been on the right side of the fidelity (????) line…

What happens to people who treat the “one mate per lifetime” policy like a social rule and secretly believe that a mate need not necessarily be a soulmate… for them the most sacred commandments are “Thou shall not be caught” along with “innocent till proven otherwise”. I believe, this is not a very good state to be in…

So what are the options for these “infidelity(??) prone types”? let me take a few guesses:–

1) Try to live with what they have and make better of it…. try making the mate they have as their soulmate.
2) Try explaining to their lifemate that they might need a soulmate at somepoint of time.. (ha ha…. God might be able to get away with that)
3) Try to keep themselves from harbouring such unholy thoughts and forever walk the thin line of righteousness(???)
4) Try to somehow ‘maintain’ a soulmate without letting the mate know about it. You see, lifemates generally take their soulmate status as something ‘Given’, they wont react very well when he truth dawns upon them..

OHH!! i forgot to mention something…. there are people who keep finding soulmates (genuinely) every now and then (believe me their are such people)…. Wow!! now that complicates everything… How do we accomodate them?

This whole blogpost seems to have been one big mistake…. you wont be able to make sense of it… i cant communicate this in a better manner…. i am confused as i was before… and you are thinking ” He has lost it big time…”

But i would like to end this post with a thought….. think for a while… what happens if you end up with a person as un-decipherable as this blog? what if this person is your supposedly one perlifetime mate?….

Best of luck mates

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Getting back to the REAL life….

02Jun07

took me ten minutes to think what the title of this post should be… i m clearly out of practice.. but i guess all of us who are working have already gotten used to not finding any quality time for ourselves…. we do take out time to shop for ourselves but do we have time to listen to what we WANT? i dont…

but getting back to the REAL life is not just about that, its also about running a race that you want to win…of course some of us are running hard and do not know which race they are in…doesnt matter.. the way things are, they would soon realize the situation and hopefuly do something about it.

for me REAL life
-empowers
-improves my worth
-gets the flow back in my life

When i come back to my room late at night, i sleep like i have not slept in a long time, it is the satisfaction of having delivered what is expected from me and then some.

Krupa- Great Lakes is not the only source of my ideas. Now that i am ‘out there’, keep watching this place…. as for the gap… it had more to do with me not having an internet connection.

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The dark Knight… mortal divinity

16Apr07

Alfred: “Why bats master Bruce?”
Bruce: “Bats frighten me. It’s time my enemies share my dread”

Ok…. so what more could be written about this character which has not already been written?

if u ask me, i wud say.. maybe a book… maybe an epic…maybe an eulogy… what not?

I remember seeing the first of Batman’s movies way back in 1989, i was a normal kid, very afraid of watching action movies (my usual place of presence during the action sequences was behind the sofa) and then i was persuaded by my uncle to watch this movie. he told me beforehand that it was about a superhero who did not have any superpowers….that was enough to get me interested… i asked him all sorts of questions… “How does he fight then?”, “doesnt he get hurt?” , “how does he deal with bullets?”, “can he fly?” and he was wise enough to keep me guessing.

I never related the concept of a superhero with a normal human being, there was always supposed to be something magical about a superhero… Batman changed my understanding of a superhero forever….

Here was a man, who had witnessed the murder of his parents when he was barely 9 yrs of age, who faced the guilt of having been the cause of their death… and faced it successfully. Batman stands for all the divinity that a mortal can achieve on his own… he reminds us about the role that Fear can play as a weapon, he tells us how to convert your own fear into your strength… by facing it.

He bleeds every night when he returns to the Batcave, only to face the world smiling, as the playboy Bruce Wayen in the morning. He does not dodge bullets, he simply wrecks the mind which tugs at the trigger. I could go on and on… but brevity is of essence here.

I know u have started liking him already

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